Voicelessness and Emotional Survival
Voice Lessons: Littleton, Colorado
(Reprinted from The Brookline TAB, May 13, 1999 and excerpted in Massachusetts Psychologist, June, 1999)
Finally, two angry young adults in Littleton, Colorado who had been screaming bloody
murder for months were heard. This time they were so loud they even drowned out the sound of
the bombs falling in Serbia and Kosovo. Up until now, parents, school system, and police all had
been stone deaf.
No one can say for sure why Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold came to school April 20 and
committed the deadliest school shooting rampage in our nation's history. It is likely that there
are many factors, all of which have to line up in the right way.
But
one factor was, most certainly, deafness.
Two of the tools that psychologists use when evaluating their subjects are inference and
backwards extrapolation. If we observe a particular interaction between two people in
the present, we assume that similar interactions have occurred in the past, probably repeatedly.
This is because peoples' personalities don't tend to change much over time
(barring therapy, of course).
If a couple comes into my office and one party is slighted by
something the other party said, the odds are extraordinarily high that similar incidents have
occurred over and over again in the past.
Consider, then, that Eric Harris' parents were deaf to
the rage and hatred that the young man was making obvious to the world at large on his Web
site, getting into a scrape with the law, throwing a block of ice at a windshield, making a death
threat against another boy, etc. It is most likely that these parents rarely if ever "heard" their
son.
I'm not saying that they did not do things for their son. One can attend a son's baseball games
and practices and still be deaf. One can buy presents for your son or take him on vacation, and
still be deaf. One can be president of the Parent Teacher Organization and still be deaf. One
can look to the outside world like a perfect and loving parent and still be deaf.
Hearing requires granting a child a voice equal to yours from the day they are born. This is
difficult for parents who are still trying to make their own voice heard due to injuries from their
past. But what children have to say about the world is just as important as what you have to say.
And if you listen closely to them, you will learn as much as they will from you. I would be
willing to bet that this did not happen in the Harris and Klebold families. If it had, the young
men
would not have reacted violently to the slights they felt from their peers.
Why were these four parents unable to hear? In order to answer this each would have to look at
their own histories with a therapist. Indeed, part of the therapy process involves the exploration
of voice. Ours: was it heard, by whom, if not why not? And our children's: are we hearing
them, if not why not, how can we hear them more accurately. Children are incredibly
perceptive: they know when they are truly being heard and when they are not. And they know
when parents are merely trying to look good to the outside world. If they are chronically
unheard, they begin to build walls around themselves, act out, or do whatever it takes to protect
themselves from the pain and anxiety of being "voiceless."
Of course, it is too late now---for Harris, Klebold, and the innocent people who were executed
on April 20th. But the bloody incident should serve as a reminder, a kind of wake up call--that
we must not fool ourselves into believing we are doing a good job as parents when we are not,
that we are listening when we are not.
In the end, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold had
the last word. They spoke so loudly that for a few days the whole world paused and listened. It
needn't have come to this.
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